There are days…

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There are days
When I sense a vibration
In the winds
That will change the course
Of my life
The life that I know in the ‘now’.
 
 
There are days
When I sense the storms
Approaching
To uproot and reposition
My being
A being that just ‘is’ in the now
 
There are days
When the tremble of destiny
Forebodes
The roar that it eventually will become.
Transforming
My breath, my being, my everything that ‘was’…in the now.
 
On such days
I hold my breath
And then release it with ease
Ebbing away
The fears
Of this frail human mind
 
Embracing the truth
Of knowing my ‘not knowing’
The abyss of the ‘unknown’ ahead
Juxtaposed
By the silhouette of the new mountain
That I was just beginning to climb.


© Rachna Sharma Sirtaj

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And the page turned..

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Changed homes
Changed cities
Changed life

Familiar
To
Unfamiliar

Twin Towers to Ground Zero

Home changed
City changed
Life changed

Unfamiliar
Is
Now familiar

I have moved on..

Or have I ?

I wrote these lines when I first moved cities as a grown up.

It was a move within India, from Hyderabad to Bangalore.  It was not my first move though. My parents had moved from Madhya Pradesh to Hyderabad in Andhra Pradesh when I was 8 and my little brother was 4. Even though little, it was not an easy move for me and I am sure neither was it for my brother. A lot changed and simple coping mechanisms were developed in their own unique ways by 2 kids, to survive the massive change. It was a not an easy move for a child who came from a Hindi speaking state and school to move into an English school and Telugu speaking state. A lot changed – personally, academically and socially. But of course when you are thrown into a cauldron of soup, you kinda learn to warm up slowly until you reach that level where you are deliciously perfect.

My second Move was from Hyderabad to Bangalore. Bangalore, a city that despite the initial discomfort became home in true sense. A city that allowed me to grow up professionally, emotionally and spiritually. Life got awesomely beautiful with my little bubba , my son, who filled my days with sunlight. Soup continued to simmer.

The third move was from Bangalore, India to Munich, Germany. Once again the primary changes were the language, social interactions and profession related. All good – Cauldron churning at the best temperature – almost mid way.

A dash of creme and some herbs to bring out the flavours & add the mellowness to that soup in the making. Here comes the fourth move. This time from Germany to England. Unexpected yet known and anticipated at a deep inner level. Its been almost 25 days and the physical settling in is happening.

By now I know that this is a passing phase.

It has been amazingly interesting to stay in the present and know that it is turning into the past.  I literally feel the pages of time turning over and its an extraordinary feeling.  I cannot explain this experience, just like I cannot explain to anyone what ‘sweet’ tastes like. The frequency needs to be tuned into to go thru this experience and that dear friends, is a matter of time.

 

© Rachna Sharma Sirtaj

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Desiderata: A Poem for a Way of Life

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Desiderata: A Poem for a Way of Life

 

“Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant;

They too have their story.

Be yourself.

Especially do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love

Ffor in the face of all aridity and disenchantment

It is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you from misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,

Whatever you conceive Him to be,

And whatever your labours and aspirations,

In the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all it’s sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.”

― Max Ehrmann, Desiderata: A Poem for a Way of Life

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The Awakening

Someone tagged me in this beautiful post somewhere on the internet. It has been sitting in my drafts for a while now and perhaps today is the right day to share this on my blog. Hope you will sigh with happiness as you read this … just as I did.

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A time comes in your life when in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out…ENOUGH … Enough of fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening.

You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.

You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you…and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself…and in the process a sense of new-found confidence is born of self-approval.

Your stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and everything isn’t always about you.

So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself…and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties…and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin re-assessing and re-defining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.

You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for you next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not you job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely.

You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.

You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drinking more water, and take more time to exercise.

You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.

You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people…and you lean not to always take it personally.

You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You lean that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than you heart’s desire.

You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.

Finally, with courage in you heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

– Author Unknown

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Knowing When To Let Go

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This wonderful person literally speaks for me … sometimes connecting beautifully with the frequency that my mind might be percolating at. Her wise words provide insights to many and soothe many hearts. I absolutely love her writing style and her words. Here is an update from this beautiful soul –  Oriah Mountain Dreamer.

 

Knowing When To Let Go

Sometimes, even when we make a choice that is good for us, good for our life, perhaps even good for others, there can still be loss and sadness.

Recently, I let go of someone, quietly stepped away from a friendship. I told the truth, told them I simply did not have the energy for what was happening between us, or would have to happen- need to be talked about, sorted out, resolved, agreed to- for the friendship to continue in a real and authentic way,

It was the right choice. I really don’t have the energy to bridge the chasm that had opened up around behaviour that was, to me, inexplicable. I don’t think the behaviour was intended to be hurtful. It was an expression of something that was probably true for the other on some level. Although it was directed at me, I don’t think it was really about me at all.

And I could be wrong about all of that. Maybe the behaviour made perfect sense, and maybe it was about me, I can’t really know for sure. But I did know that the distance it created would need to be bridged for continued connection.

One of the gifts of having had a chronic illness for many years is that I know how much energy things take and whether or not that energy is available to me in the present. It took me longer than I’d like to admit to heed this knowing, to accept when I cannot do something without consequences for my health and to the detriment of other areas of my life that feed my heart and soul.

But knowing when I can’t do something, knowing I need to step away, doesn’t mean I don’t feel the loss. I do.

When I was younger, to remove myself I had to make the other wrong, had to churn up anger and muddy my memories with reminders of real and imagined slights and hurts. Of course, the downside of not needing to do this, of simply knowing when it is time to step away even as I appreciate the places where we touched each other, shared laughter, offered support in the past.. . . . is that the loss is felt fully- an ache I meet with prayers for the other, hopes for their happiness and well-being.

Learning to let go when the time is right. Knowing what we really can and can’t do and accepting this. Being willing to take responsibility for our choices. Telling the truth. Not needing to make the other wrong. Feeling the loss, letting the sadness that arises keep the heart soft when the other comes to mind. Being willing to feel it all. Remembering that the future is unpredictable.

I am so grateful for the connection that was, and I feel blessed to have let go when the time was right.

Not easy. Not excruciating. Just life as a human being.

~Oriah Mountain Dreamer (c) 2014

 

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Don’t let this world make you bitter.

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At the bottom of her heart, however, she was waiting for something to happen. Like shipwrecked sailors, she turned despairing eyes upon the solitude of her life, seeking afar off some white sail in the mists of the horizon. She did not know what this chance would be, what wind would bring it her, towards what shore it would drive her, if it would be a shallop or a three-decker, laden with anguish or full of bliss to the portholes. But each morning, as she awoke, she hoped it would come that day; she listened to every sound, sprang up with a start, wondered that it did not come; then at sunset, always more saddened, she longed for the morrow.”

Gustave Flaubert Madame Bovary

 

I completed this painting a while ago ( a few days before I left Munich for 5 weeks). This one followed ‘Amalgamation‘ and was inspired by a picture I found online. The final painting took shape slowly…evoking deep emotions at times and making me learn more than what I previously knew. You see, I am not a trained artist and generally do not feel confident of my painting skills at all. Buuuut…despite all that – I love to paint. (Just as much as I love to write) I love the colours, the feel of the brush strokes on the canvas, the smell of turpentine and linseed oil. I love the mediums I use and most of all I love the person I am when I am painting and creating something on my own. I feel free, eclectic…wild and beautiful – all at once – and that ensures that I usually start another painting, soon after finishing the current one. I sincerely hope, your visit here today has been worth your time and patient reading.

To complete this post…here is something that kinda resonates with me – “Painting reflects. It kills you in a colourful shower of emptiness. Flatness. Randomness. And beauty. Yes, it is the most pure beauty I have ever felt in my life.”

 
Nigel Tomm

 

©Rachna (Author)

 
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Choose Well.

This picture card is one of those that you might see many times over on my blog. I post, re-post and re-repost, messages that are very close to my heart, and this one definitely rests somewhere right on top of the list.

Kindly share this further – on your twitter/Facebook or WordPress pages. Thank you in advance for being here, reading what I post and encouraging me constantly & consistently.

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A chance to grow…

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Universe has a way of taking care of our needs.

 
Most of us have experienced times in our lives when we have felt beaten down to the bone, been unfairly accused, unjustly spoken about, felt rejected, abandoned and humiliated by those we love dearly. The pain is excruciating and deep – mostly because people who we ‘love’ carried out this painful behaviour.

 
In our journey of emotional & spiritual growth, it is important to understand that people who indulge in that behaviour and more are perhaps the best catalysts in our lives for us to learn the soul – lessons of acceptance, unconditional love and patience.

 
If we understand their role in our lives, then we would also understand that they are here to teach us acceptance of the human being in them, despite their behaviour. They provide us with an opportunity to learn to love them as they are – however hard a task that might be. They also provide us an alternate or complementary opportunity to stand up for our selves as and when required.

 
When we understand their role in our lives and their contribution to our emotional growth, we are able to look at these souls with a heart filled with love and understanding. We begin to understand that they are unaware of how their behaviour affects us or anyone else for that matter. How can we possibly hold anger or misgiving against people who are saying things or displaying behaviour that is based in total unawareness? How does one stay angry with someone who is completely oblivious of the effect their behaviour is having on others?

 
Having said that, It is to be remembered that we cannot and must not absolve them of their responsibility for their behaviour. Words and actions never form on the tongue. They are born out of a thought process. When someone is obnoxious, rude or plain uncaring in their words and actions towards us, obviously they have made a choice to be that way. They had a choice to be rude, obnoxious, and hurtful OR to be silent (in their actions and words). They had a choice and they made a choice. For example: We have a choice 1) to be furious with their behaviour and retaliate or break- up with them 2) we have a choice to understand their role in our lives and look at the positive outcome of such relationships 3) we have a choice to ignore them, their behaviour and carry on as before.

 
Today we are choosing – ‘choice number 2’.

 
Every choice we make is followed by the consequences of that choice. Sometimes the consequences are thought thru and sometimes they are not. Either ways consequences loom large on the horizon of every single action we take. The fact that these people chose to be hurtful makes them responsible for the consequences of their actions. Each one of us has a choice to act in a certain way – whatever the situation and each one of us is responsible – for the consequences of the choice that we made. I know I am.

 
They choose to be hurtful and oblivious of effect of their actions, we choose to be understanding of their behaviours – whilst experiencing emotional and spiritual growth, and learning to safeguard ourselves.

 
Loving and accepting, those who hurt us with their pain inflicting words and hurtful actions, is our choice…similarly we also have a choice to limit our interactions with them to safeguard our boundaries from getting breached each time we interact with them.

 

You owe that to you and I owe the same to me.

 
As balanced we might be as individuals, whatever professions we might belong to, at the end of the day each one of us is a human being, encompassed with human emotions and fallibility. Just like a teacher may not know all answers all the time, a beautician may have a sudden attack of acne or have a bad hair day, an artist may feel completely deprived of creativity and a therapist may feel completely out of the loop with emotions running amok, there can be enough and more storms that rage within a human heart that are capable of imbalancing a person – whatever the reason.

 
Understanding , acceptance and love is the core that we are all made of. It’s an honour to find that core and work from it as a base for our day to day lives. It’s wonderful to understand those who inflict pain upon us through their behaviour, but it is also marvelous to understand our need to safeguard ourselves by understanding and limiting the toxic interactions.

 
As I said at the beginning of this post, Universe has a way of taking care of our needs – for the universe never abandons its child. This morning as I looked around to find a quote for the readers on my Facebook page – this is what I chanced upon…something that was hidden in my archives and something that speaks loud and clear to each one of us – providing us with the required permissions and affirming our rights in the gentlest ways possible.

 
“You don’t need anyone’s affection or approval in order to be good enough. When someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn’t actually about you. It’s about them and their own insecurities, limitations, and needs, and you don’t have to internalize that. Your worth isn’t contingent upon other people’s acceptance of you – it’s something inherent. You exist, and therefore, you matter. You’re allowed to voice your thoughts and feelings. You’re allowed to assert your needs and take up space. You’re allowed to hold onto the truth that who you are is exactly enough. And you’re allowed to remove anyone from your life who makes you feel otherwise.”

― Daniell Koepke

 

Need I say more?

 

©Rachna (Author)

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