And the page turned..

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Changed homes
Changed cities
Changed life

Familiar
To
Unfamiliar

Twin Towers to Ground Zero

Home changed
City changed
Life changed

Unfamiliar
Is
Now familiar

I have moved on..

Or have I ?

I wrote these lines when I first moved cities as a grown up.

It was a move within India, from Hyderabad to Bangalore.  It was not my first move though. My parents had moved from Madhya Pradesh to Hyderabad in Andhra Pradesh when I was 8 and my little brother was 4. Even though little, it was not an easy move for me and I am sure neither was it for my brother. A lot changed and simple coping mechanisms were developed in their own unique ways by 2 kids, to survive the massive change. It was a not an easy move for a child who came from a Hindi speaking state and school to move into an English school and Telugu speaking state. A lot changed – personally, academically and socially. But of course when you are thrown into a cauldron of soup, you kinda learn to warm up slowly until you reach that level where you are deliciously perfect.

My second Move was from Hyderabad to Bangalore. Bangalore, a city that despite the initial discomfort became home in true sense. A city that allowed me to grow up professionally, emotionally and spiritually. Life got awesomely beautiful with my little bubba , my son, who filled my days with sunlight. Soup continued to simmer.

The third move was from Bangalore, India to Munich, Germany. Once again the primary changes were the language, social interactions and profession related. All good – Cauldron churning at the best temperature – almost mid way.

A dash of creme and some herbs to bring out the flavours & add the mellowness to that soup in the making. Here comes the fourth move. This time from Germany to England. Unexpected yet known and anticipated at a deep inner level. Its been almost 25 days and the physical settling in is happening.

By now I know that this is a passing phase.

It has been amazingly interesting to stay in the present and know that it is turning into the past.  I literally feel the pages of time turning over and its an extraordinary feeling.  I cannot explain this experience, just like I cannot explain to anyone what ‘sweet’ tastes like. The frequency needs to be tuned into to go thru this experience and that dear friends, is a matter of time.

 

© Rachna Sharma Sirtaj

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Fear – That monster under your bed

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Fear holds us back…more often than it should. Fear restricts us and places boundaries on that, which we are perfectly capable of achieving. We have learnt that it is safer to fit into the contained mold of known emotions, known territory, known work/job criterion. We have learnt that trying something new or choosing something, that not many others choose, is risky.

Safe is traditionally what we do…despite the innumerable examples that we see, read and hear about otherwise. We choose to obliterate the methodology and the realness of people who have stepped out of the safe boundaries despite their fears and apprehensions. We categorize them as ‘brave’ or ‘lucky’. We choose to revere them and say – “Wow, I wish I could do that !!” Well, why can’t you? Who stops you from achieving what you ‘want’ to achieve? Who is holding you back?

I think successful people are not fearless or unafraid. I think successful people choose to keep going, despite their fears. I think success depends upon how well one is aware of one’s fears. It also depends upon how well one understands these fears and deals with them.

It is alright to know that there is a monster under the bed. Being aware of the monster under the bed, allows us to prepare ourselves to deal with that very monster under the bed, and identical ones that might appear thru the night. Similarly it is alright to have fears and to be aware of these fears. Being aware of our fears allows us to prepare ourselves to deal with these fears and other identical ones that might appear as life goes by. Being aware allows us the following choices 1) deal with the fears 2) let go of the fears and 3) sometimes just make peace with them. Awareness is the most powerful tool we possess, towards making a change. 

In the words of the wise – “A further sign of health is that we don’t become undone by fear and trembling, but we take it as a message that it’s time to stop struggling and look directly at what’s threatening us. ”  – Pema Chödrön

So, It is alright:

To have fears.

It is alright to be aware of your fears.

It is alright to choose to deal with your fears.

It is alright to let go of your fears.

It is also alright to make peace with your fears.

What is not alright is:

To continue feeding your fears

To continue staying frozen by your fears

To continue walking a few steps behind everyone else, due to your fears

And

To continue staying still because of your fears.

-Rachna

 

Wishing you a fabulous day ahead…filled with an abundance of Love & Peace

Rachna

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Just another memory

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Feet meander homewards
Snow filled clouds part
Soft peachy glow
Of the late afternoon sun
Turns a lifeless moment
Into one that will now be held
In the deep recesses of the mind
For an eternity.

Playing hide and seek
Between lives
Filled with hope and despair.

 ©Rachna Sharma Sirtaj

 

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Ripples of truth

 

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And just like that the dream shattered.

Even though she had suspected for a while that it would, the sound of the crash was louder than she had expected.

Here is the thing about broken dreams. They are not easy to deal with. They crash and they scatter all over, creating a big mess that needs to be swept up. Sometimes the saving grace is  that people understands this particular sorrow of loss. In reality they may have helped bring on the process of shattering or even actually taken over and shattered the dream. But when they see you standing in silence and and looking at those scattered pieces, tears streaming down your cheeks – they sometimes do understands. At times you also get lucky enough to have everyone step back and allow you the time to mourn the loss.

In this respect, she got lucky. The world stepped back and allowed her the space to absorb the sight of those little bits and pieces that her dream had shattered into. Thru the haze of her misty eyes, she could see her reflection, her ambitions, her plans and her future in each one of those tiny pieces. Potentially this would have been a good time to sink into a depression or have a nervous breakdown – like the books suggested or the umpteen number of movies portrayed. It would be easy and everyone would actually understand. She could withdraw from all the pain that surrounded her being, and retreat into the gentle white softness of silence.

She felt alone and unsupported. It seemed like everyone had given up on her. She felt completely written off – devoid of potential or a possible future. There is something about the lack of ‘show of support’. If it does not happen at the right time – it becomes ineffective, like medication that has passed its expiry date. In her case, the lack of ‘words of support’ gave rise to a silence within her being, that she found strangely peaceful. It was a space where she could experience and see everyone as they were. No layers of words to cover up their real thoughts – no pretense of love. Just plain indifference that she found easy to accept. This actually seemed really nice. She liked the feeling. It was akin to wearing no makeup – which she disliked wearing. It felt like being alone  in nature, under the sky – in her minuscule spot in the universe. A spot that belonged to her.

And then, in that silent space, something magnificent happened. Amidst the sounds of her dream crashing and reverberating loudly – there were ripples of a stark realization that echoed into infinite loops, through the eternal vastness of the universe.

She had not yet given up on herself – not yet.

She had not written herself off

This is what mattered.

This is ALL that mattered.

 

Author – ©Rachna Sharma Sirtaj

 

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Clouds (from my Photo-Blog)

Scattered across

In abundance

Floating around

Aligned in chaos

Just like my thoughts

-Rachna

Smattering of Clouds over Munich

From my Photo-blog today.

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Random act of Kindness – Mridula Kaul ( Guest Blog 1 )

A beautiful blog post by Mridula Kaul, a dear friend and a fabulous human being – kind, gentle, funny, spontaneous & innovative. She thinks and feels from her heart and manages to convert those thoughts and feelings to beautiful words – I am very proud to add her writing to my blog. This will be a  short series with snippets of writing that Mridula has graciously agreed to share on my blog. 

Mridula, a versatile netizen, is a resident of UK. 

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As I sailed through the sea of commuters gushing out of my train at Charing Cross, I noticed a young lady make a beeline for the nearest Costa and grab a hot beverage. Her stilettos clacketteering (I know there isn’t a word like that but indulge me if you would), she checked her smartphone and smiled (I could see her cheeks lifting up her lips, prompted presumably by interesting texts or funny comments on her FB pictures) and then rushed towards to the man who sells The Big Issue (the man who stands at the same spot outside the station, come rain, snow or shine) in a way that only a customer who is intent on buying something, would do. At this point, I would ordinarily have smiled at the man as I do every morning, and quickened my steps to get to the office. Today was different. The lady handed over her take-away coffee cup to the man, covering both his freezing hands with her gloved ones. ‘There you go, swee’haaa!!’ she said in her Saaf London accent, ‘thaw you might need thaa!!’ With that, she pecked him on his cheek, gave him a wink and clacketteered away, as he watched on stunned. Not many would have bought a copy of his Big Issue. But not one person would ever have bought him a coffee, of that I am certain. In the world we live in, full of cruelty and horror of unheard and unseen proportions, this small act of kindness suddenly restored my faith in humanity. But then, I’m easily pleased. I haven’t been able to wipe the smile off my face since.

-Mridula Kaul

 

Wishing you a fabulous day ahead…filled with Lots of Love & an Abundance of Peace.

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Life does not require us…

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“Life does not require us to be consistent, cruel, patient, helpful, angry, rational, thoughtless, loving, rash, open-minded, neurotic, careful, rigid, tolerant, wasteful, rich, downtrodden, gentle, sick, considerate, funny, stupid, healthy, greedy, beautiful, lazy, responsive, foolish, sharing, pressured, intimate, hedonistic, industrious, manipulative, insightful, capricious, wise, selfish, kind or sacrificed.

Life does, however, require us to live with the consequences of our choices.”

 

– Richard Bach

 

Wishing you a fabulous day ahead…filled with Lots of Love & an abundance of Peace.

 

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Chained !!

Random stuff that lies around my desk fascinates me. I love looking at things *out of context*.  I also love placing, arranging and photographing stuff – be it books, flowers, my little Buddha or like today – the silver chain that I usually wear (and take off in the evening) and that one pearl, that has lain around on my desk for some vague reason (that I am clueless about). Both of these objects are not supposed to be on my desk and yet they are – out of their original ‘habitat’ – making them totally picture-worthy for me. Sooooo…here they are – enticing, delicate and beautiful.

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Precious bond

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Take off that mask !

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Wearing a mask
Day in and day out
Lonely & exhausted
Carrying the charade, you think you must.
You begin to forget
Who you really are

That mask
Your protection & your barrier
Between you and you.
Alienating and crumbling
Fragmenting your sense of self
Tearing into your integrity

How did you forget?
The core of your being
Your beautiful soul
That exists without masks
Intrinsically quiet and observant
Willing to open up its fragrance to the world.

Oh, why do you cover all that beauty
With that unforgiving mask
I know, life has been tough
I know you surrendered
Took the incentive
And raised the barriers

But you are beautiful
Despite the tears that stain your cheeks
With all that you consider imperfect within
Along with broken dreams and that abyss of sorrow
Unmet desires and unfulfilled yearnings
Despite infidelities and broken trust

You are vast
You are infinite
I know you feel small
But that you are not
You are powerful
You are love and courage personified

And you are here, now
Standing tall in this precious space
Own your thoughts
Feel the eternal & the finite
For you are
The unmasked master of your destiny

©Rachna (Author)

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